My story

There was blood in the bathtub. . .

My fathers hands holding a fist full of hair that had just been ripped from my mothers head after he violently attacked the women he was supposed to love. My mother laying in the bathtub surrounded in her own dispear. Me a child. Helpless. Watching this all unfold before me. Alone. Distraught. No Answers.

This image has never left my body. Neither did the lessons that I learnt that day, that the world is not safe, and the best thing I could do was to disappear. Unfortunately for me, this was only one of the many memories I had of growing up in an unstable enviroment.

I spent the next 30 years disappearing.

As a child I travelled with my family to military bases across the globe.
As I got older those military bases, turned into boardrooms. Somehow I was building brands for global companies by day. Destroying myself by night. High functioning, successful, but completely lost.

The night I almost lost her - I stopped.

My wife looked at me and said she was leaving. It made no sense. I had survived everything. I was lost, afraid and confused. I had no answers. No Help. I knew could not survive this. So, for the first time in my adult life, I looked at what was underneath. A decade of counsellors, an extensive list of healing modalities, teachers, spirit guides, energies, healings. . .and slowly, layer by layer the traumas started to lift. The relationship started to repair. 

I could breathe. I could feel and I could see.

What I found underneath changed everything.

Suddenly gifts that had lay dormant inside me started to show up. Gifts my Maori lineage had always carried. Gifts I couldn't ignore. Gifts I now share to help others. I didn't become a healer. I excavated one.

This is why I do this mahi (work)

Not because I learnt it over a weekend course. Not because I studied it. Because I needed it to work, and I needed to know I could help myself. Now, decades later, I have my answers and I completely, whole heartedly know without any doubts, that there are ways to help yourself through the darkest of times and now, I share what worked on me with my clients.